Everyday is a New Day


Before my trip and now after my trip I’ve been feeling unmotivated. I don’t feel like focusing on eating healthy, my workouts feel forced and I don’t care what I look like. Everyone feels like this. We can’t all be motivated 24/7. But the difference is pushing through even when that motivation light has flickered out. My husband helped me realize that the other day. He was feeling tired and sore, but he still went to the gym to train legs! Hardest body part to train when you’re feeling unmotivated. I’m glad he did because that gave me my new spark. I have been still feeling jet lagged from my trip so my sleeping schedule has been weird. I fall asleep at around 8pm and wake up at 3:30am. So finally I decided I’m going to take advantage of being up that early. I went to the gym. Worked back for about an hour and then did the stairs for 40 min. I FEEL AMAZING! Now the hard part…getting consistent with the morning workouts again. I can’t always wake up at 3:30 and have that long of workout, but for now that works for me.

As I mentioned in a previous blog, I will be starting JillFit’s FastPhysique program on my birthday!!! September 13! It’s a 9 week program I didn’t finish when she initially released it. Each workout it is 45 min or less. Once I complete this program I will be at my next vacay!

I am also going to be more consistent with my blog again!


European Vacation!!


I am back from my European vacation with my aunt and uncle! Happy and sad to be back all at the same time. It was so different than what my husband and I usually do but it was so amazing! Here’s a shirt description of what we did with pictures!!!

Ord United Lounge

ORD- United Club Lounge

Holiday Inn Mayfair- London

Swiss Air- heading to Venice!

First night gelato!

Second night Cannoli!


Gorgeous Venetian sunset from a water taxi 

Back in London!  Big Ben!

Had breakfast at the Ritz!  So fancy!

On to Paris!  At Versailles in the Battle Gallery

Can’t forget the Eiffel Tower!

Back to London for a cliche picture with an old telephone booth!

Finally, living it up in business class on the way home!



I feel like in the fitness world walking gets a bad rap. I think that’s because most people don’t think they can get their heart rates up high enough to make walking worthwhile.

Walking is great for both beginner and advanced. There are so many ways to get your heart rate up walking. Walk up hill, walk up stairs, walk fast, just walk. Get up and go!



My hands are now healing. They may still look a little red in the picture but they definitely don’t feel the same way they did last week. I am the happiest I’ve felt in awhile. I feel good physically and mentally. I do have to keep reminding myself that this will always be something I have to deal with, but I’m constantly learning what I can and can’t do. I did learn that I have to avoid drinking certain alcohol, but not all alcohol is bad. I know what foods to avoid and what food has been helping. This non steroid cream (eucresa) has been a miracle. I put it on in the morning and at night and my hands look fantastic. I feel like I can get back to normal.

I will be MIA for about 10 days starting on Thursday. But then I’ll be back in full swing and will be writing about starting fastphysique again!

Update- No Allergies


I went to the allergist yesterday and found out I am not allergic to anything.  So an allergy is not causing the eczema.  I kind of knew that, but was getting so tired of guessing.  So the allergy doctor did prescribe me a new ointment that recently came on the market that is non-steroid based.  It’s called Eucrisa and it’s only applied in the morning and at night, where as a topical steroid was to be applied when there was a flare up.  So I’m going to continue to try this and keep the diet limited to foods I know won’t flare it up.  I’m also going to bust out the humidifier and hope that helps as well as our house gets very dry.

I was able to get to the gym today for a chest day.  Enjoy!

Life Takes Over Sometimes


Hi everyone!

I’m sorry it’s been awhile again. I’ve been dealing with some things that have made me feel pretty unmotivated to write anything. I’ve been dealing with some pretty bad eczema flair ups and it’s been driving be absolutely insane trying to figure out what’s causing it (that craziness isn’t helping anything lol).

I’ve been mentally telling myself that I no longer need to follow a full on bodybuilders diet so I am moving on for now for my health. The timeline for when I started bodybuilding and adding more protein and when the eczema started coinside. So I am now torn between looking good and feeling good. The high protein diet definately gave me the look I was aiming for but over time has made me feel horrible.

The last few weeks have been eye opening. I’ve been feeling more tired than normal, my body has been reacting abnormally to food and drink that used to be fine and I have been stumped as to what could be causing all of this.

Hope kicked in a few weeks ago when I had pizza for dinner and the next morning I woke up to hands that didn’t hurt. I didn’t think anything of it so that night I had my normal eggs and Ezekiel Bread and the next morning my hands hurt. Again didn’t think anything of it. I kept thinking maybe it was some allergen in the house. So last Friday I had pizza again for dinner (I love me some pizza🍕🍕!!!) And again woke up the next morning and my hands felt awesome. So we all know the cure right?! PIZZA!!! HAHA! I wish! But no. Both nights there wasn’t a ton of protein in my dinner. So now I’m slowing my roll with protein. I’m not cutting it completely (because that would be almost impossible), but limiting the amount. I have been told on multiple occasions by multiple people that high protein is not the cause, but after 3 1/2 years of doing bodybuilding and 3 1/2 years of having eczema, I beg to differ. There is some connection (it could just be the meat?) and I’m hoping to find it.

My new diet has been mainly- Ezekiel bread, natural peanut butter, salad, black beans, avocado, cucumbers, onions, only 2 eggs vs 2full/3whites, fruits, greek yogurt, cottage cheese, and Apple cider vinegar. I found an article that split food into alkaline vs acid based and have been trying to focus on getting more alkaline based foods. Which also means switching from tap water to purified spring water.

I know this is long and not everyone deals with eczema, but I am sorry if you are too. It sucks. I’m seeing an allergist tomorrow in the hopes that they can shed a little more light on what causes my flare ups that I could be missing. I will post an update on Friday. Until then- keep lifting and stay motivated!

This is a good day :-(

This is a good day 🙁



675f46444cedacf8577cb46babf60f21We all go through moments of feeling super confident!  We wake up and feel like we can rock anything in our wardrobe, we go to the gym and rock every PR and feel amazing when we leave and then go out at night and feel even more confident and fantastic!

These are good days, days everyone should have more of!


Then there are days where you wake up feeling like nothing will look good on you, you’re feeling bloated and gross, your hair won’t do what you want it to do, you put on whatever because it won’t matter, nothing will look good.  These are the days we need less of.  This is how I have been feeling this week.  I worked out and felt awesome, but came home and looked in the mirror and had one of those blah feelings, like I don’t look like I feel….

What does that mean?  How am I supposed to look?  Isn’t that up to me?  Well it’s supposed to be and it is, but these days when you think too much about what other people perceive of you are the days when I don’t know what I’m supposed to look like.  I talk a big game of working out all the time, eating moderately healthy, but then I look in the mirror and think… this isn’t what people expect to see.  They don’t want to see someone who’s muscles aren’t as visible as they were before when this blog started, they don’t want to see someone who’s hips just keep getting wider regardless of what I do (besides insane dieting), and who’s stomach may seem flat, but keeps getting wider.   Where do these standards come from in my head?  They come from the lack of confidence I feel that probably relate to hormones (thanks hormones, you suck).  I catch myself following people on instagram who are both in super condition (ready for a show or keep posting pictures from when they did a bodybuilding show or photoshoot) and people who train like I do and look normal.   The normal ones are the pages that bring me back down to earth.  I’m not supposed to constantly have a six pack, nor am I supposed to feel fantastic 24/7 (if you feel fantastic 24/7 please give me your secret).  I just have to work on getting out of this mental block of feeling down on myself.  Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.  I hope this helps you if you’re in a funk like I am.